I know its been forever since i have written, i guess im not a consistant blogger. Life is getting back to normal now. Break up was SLOW but work is picking up in grande prairie and everything seems soooo much better. Dwayne is now busy at work, kinda wish i had my car back but oh well. My dayhome is full for the summer anyway. Which is great, i love being able to be home with my kids and still pay bills. In fact i make more money this way than if i was to go back to work. Not to mention i dont want to miss out on anything. So thankfully money is no longer a worry, and im so glad too. Life is too short to have to worry about stuff like money. Our savings account is back where it was before the slow time, mind you a little chunk of the savings was spent on a boat but that too has been replaced. We also have been doing some quiet house hunting. The house we are in right now, altho its great, we are looking for something of our own. We weren't sure that we would be approved because we still own a mobile home in clairmont, which we are renting out. But seeing that our renters have been consistant with paying thier rent, the bank has giving us a new mortgage!!!! We now are the owners of a really great house!!! We get possesion Aug 1st!!! Whats really great and sad at the same time is that the mortgage payment is significantly less than the rent we pay now!!! Not to mention that the heating and electricity should be lower too being that this is an older house and the windows leak and such. The new house is less than 2 yrs old so there will be soooooo much less maintenance.
Anyway, back on the subject of wieght loss since that is what this blog is for. Process has been slow but im still losing. seems to be about 2 lbs every two weeks. which i think is still great as long as that number keeps getting smaller im happy! Altho once moved into the new house, i definetly need to get back to work. My weight training has been staggered, and not very consistant. Snacking and pop have kinda moved back in, but as of today diet is back on and im again posting in my log book. I thought that i would be able to keep the diet up with out tthe log book but its harder than i thought. In the past months i have lost almost 25 lbs and im very happy with that, altho according to my trainer it should have been more. But in my eyes, everything in life isn't always going to go as planned. Some things take longer than expected. Its just sad that it doesn't take very long to put the weight on but takes sooooo long to take it off. Anyway i am going to try to get back on track. Working out, eating right and blogging more!!!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
I have been very anxious this week. I'm very excited about my trip. I'm excited for the kids also. I want them to meet everyone. Altho Kearstin has met alot of my family, She unfortunatly wouldn't remember them. Sadly enough it has been that long since i have seen them.
Even tho i am so excited i am also very disappointed. My dad was supposed to go along on this trip and i was looking forward to the time with him, not only for me but the kids too. But again he has let me down. On his facebook and msn i have been reading all week that he has been going to auctions all over. Then last night i get a message that he cant afford to go and that ill be going by myself. It hurts that he couldn't just keep away from all the unneccessary crap and think of his kids and grandkids for once. Him and i have been planning this trip for over two months so its not like he didn't know that it was coming. The thing that makes me the most angry is that i let it happen again. Being let down by him is something that has been happening my whole life and i was silly to think that things would change.
My diet and workouts have been going good. Pounds are still coming off, slowly but they are coming off. I tryed on a pair of pants that i haven't worn for a real long time and i zipped them up and didn't want to cry lol. It felt great to know that all the hard work is paying off and that i am really doing what i have been trying so hard to do. I still have a long road ahead of me but hey one pair of pants is a huge start and right now ill take it. People around me are starting to notice that i have lost weight and complimenting me and i think now thats what i needed to boost the confidence and gain back my motivation. Sometimes i guess you just need a push!!
Even tho i am so excited i am also very disappointed. My dad was supposed to go along on this trip and i was looking forward to the time with him, not only for me but the kids too. But again he has let me down. On his facebook and msn i have been reading all week that he has been going to auctions all over. Then last night i get a message that he cant afford to go and that ill be going by myself. It hurts that he couldn't just keep away from all the unneccessary crap and think of his kids and grandkids for once. Him and i have been planning this trip for over two months so its not like he didn't know that it was coming. The thing that makes me the most angry is that i let it happen again. Being let down by him is something that has been happening my whole life and i was silly to think that things would change.
My diet and workouts have been going good. Pounds are still coming off, slowly but they are coming off. I tryed on a pair of pants that i haven't worn for a real long time and i zipped them up and didn't want to cry lol. It felt great to know that all the hard work is paying off and that i am really doing what i have been trying so hard to do. I still have a long road ahead of me but hey one pair of pants is a huge start and right now ill take it. People around me are starting to notice that i have lost weight and complimenting me and i think now thats what i needed to boost the confidence and gain back my motivation. Sometimes i guess you just need a push!!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Month 2
Well i made my month one goal of 10 pounds, i was positive i would have lost more just on the first week itself. After the first week it slowly decrease and im having to really push myself now for results. Im definetly not discouraged tho, ten pounds is great and 5.5 more and ill be under 200 lbs and thats awesome. I will jump for joy when i hit that milestone and don't ever want to return to that. I took a few days off from my workout, my body needed the rest. But now today i feel better, Hayden sleeping thru the night may have something to do with that. I am bumping up my cardio from 30 minutes to 45. Im sure my calves will hate me later but im working up to an hour so its been long enough. Weight training is going great the weights dont feel as heavy so its almost time to bump that up too. Altho im not body building so i am not going higher than 15 lbs. I bought some resistance tubing and its great. Gives the same effect as the weights and can be used together to make it more of a challenge. And did i tell everyone how much i hate squats, my poor butt hurt so much the next day.
Well its been a busy week again, trying to get some spring cleaning done before my trip. Its been tough with Hayden being sick. Poor little guy has a pretty nasty cold despite all the oranges him and his dad consume. His nose is runny and he cant seem to breath out of his nose. He has a pretty nasty cough too, and it makes me sad i cant do much to help him. I did find some triaminic nasal spray for infants and it really helped him sleep last night so that was great. He went right from teething to being sick so his sleeping hasn't been great.
Between that and the stress of Kearstin not coming home from school for 4 days in a row has taken a toll. She seems to think that playing in the park and not coming home isn't a big deal. But i have tryed and tryed to get thru to her that i worry. I sit here hoping shes at the park but the idea of her getting picked up by a stranger isn't far from my mind. That is one of my biggest fears of her getting older. Did I teach her enough about strangers? Would she go near a vehicle asking her to get in? Would she know what to do if the situation did happen? I guess i just have to keep stressing how important it is that i know where she is at all times. AHHHHH GIRLSSSSSSS!!!!! I know i know i was a young girl that didn't want to listen to my parents too. But hopefully i can use my mistakes to better educate her and thats all i want. I just want her to have and do things i couldn't.
Well its been a busy week again, trying to get some spring cleaning done before my trip. Its been tough with Hayden being sick. Poor little guy has a pretty nasty cold despite all the oranges him and his dad consume. His nose is runny and he cant seem to breath out of his nose. He has a pretty nasty cough too, and it makes me sad i cant do much to help him. I did find some triaminic nasal spray for infants and it really helped him sleep last night so that was great. He went right from teething to being sick so his sleeping hasn't been great.
Between that and the stress of Kearstin not coming home from school for 4 days in a row has taken a toll. She seems to think that playing in the park and not coming home isn't a big deal. But i have tryed and tryed to get thru to her that i worry. I sit here hoping shes at the park but the idea of her getting picked up by a stranger isn't far from my mind. That is one of my biggest fears of her getting older. Did I teach her enough about strangers? Would she go near a vehicle asking her to get in? Would she know what to do if the situation did happen? I guess i just have to keep stressing how important it is that i know where she is at all times. AHHHHH GIRLSSSSSSS!!!!! I know i know i was a young girl that didn't want to listen to my parents too. But hopefully i can use my mistakes to better educate her and thats all i want. I just want her to have and do things i couldn't.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Well this last week has been crazy! Dwayne recieved a pay cut from his salary, so we are scrambling to sell my car to make up the difference. Stress is hindering when your trying to lose weight!! But, i think i have been handling it pretty good. My diet got kinda off track, not eating bad, just not following as closely as i should have been. It showed in the numbers too. I didn't gain but i sure wasn't losing as good as i was at the start. So this week im back on track!! I have been still working out every day, ive even added some extra exercises to the mix. Although i need to find a better skipping rope, the one i bought is not very good! Ive been doing my ab workout on the yoga ball instead of just on the floor and man is it ever a difference. I can feel a lot more of my muscles being challanged. Not just in my abs, in my back and sides too!! Saturday is another weigh in, and also time to upgrade my measurements. Myself, i dont see much of a difference. 10 pounds is great but i dont believe it makes much difference in inches but i like to be proved wrong. My husband said " You look skinnier today!" and coming from my husband who isn't much of a complimenter that feels great! The actual weight loss is slow, but my body feels so much better already. My breathing has improved and movement too. I have more energy during the day and feel less tired.
Oh and 16 more days til my trip south!!! Im so excited!!!
Oh and 16 more days til my trip south!!! Im so excited!!!
Friday, March 20, 2009
I know its been awhile since i posted last. The last week has been going good, minus my laptop crashing. Im hoping that when i leave for easter that my dad will have a chance to fix it. Somehow i recieved a virus on it and its affecting the booting up process. I have formatted the harddrive twice and no luck. I would hate to have to buy a new laptop, because i have only had this one for a short time. But now im on Kearstins laptop, only problem is that i have the parental controls so high that its a pain to get on any site unless i wanted to play on barbie.com.
This week has been going well, the diet is still going. I bought the Biggest Loser Cookbook, i needed to find some new recipes because i was tired of eating the same thing over and over. Yesterday i whipped up a pot of turkey chili, and it was awesome. Not as great as regular chili but still really tasty. I made enough to freeze some so ill have some for awhile as no one else here eats chili. Last night for supper i made meatballs subs for Dwayne and i. The were messy but really good and only 384 calories. I was finding it really hard to eat all the protein and 2000 calories was really high so i am following the diet plan in the biggest loser book. Less Calories but roughly the same plan.
Exercise is going really good. I feel great, only my back has been really sore the past few days. I blame the back pain on my heavy chest. Once i have lost some more weight i will be going for a reduction. Im tired of my back and shoulders being sore, paying 85 dollars for a bra, and having trouble all the time finding shirts that fit proper. Everything that fits my bust never fits anywhere else. Some women lose thiers when they have kids, not me. With Kearstin they got bigger and stayed that way. With Hayden they got bigger again and stayed that way. A 40E is way to big, and i dont understand women that get implants. Why on earth would you need them THIS BIG!!! But back to what i started talking about, the exercise is good. My stamina is getting way better and i can do longer stints on the treadmill and faster too. I feel great when i work out and right away if i miss a day i feel sluggish and tired. Im happy with the way things are going.
This week has been going well, the diet is still going. I bought the Biggest Loser Cookbook, i needed to find some new recipes because i was tired of eating the same thing over and over. Yesterday i whipped up a pot of turkey chili, and it was awesome. Not as great as regular chili but still really tasty. I made enough to freeze some so ill have some for awhile as no one else here eats chili. Last night for supper i made meatballs subs for Dwayne and i. The were messy but really good and only 384 calories. I was finding it really hard to eat all the protein and 2000 calories was really high so i am following the diet plan in the biggest loser book. Less Calories but roughly the same plan.
Exercise is going really good. I feel great, only my back has been really sore the past few days. I blame the back pain on my heavy chest. Once i have lost some more weight i will be going for a reduction. Im tired of my back and shoulders being sore, paying 85 dollars for a bra, and having trouble all the time finding shirts that fit proper. Everything that fits my bust never fits anywhere else. Some women lose thiers when they have kids, not me. With Kearstin they got bigger and stayed that way. With Hayden they got bigger again and stayed that way. A 40E is way to big, and i dont understand women that get implants. Why on earth would you need them THIS BIG!!! But back to what i started talking about, the exercise is good. My stamina is getting way better and i can do longer stints on the treadmill and faster too. I feel great when i work out and right away if i miss a day i feel sluggish and tired. Im happy with the way things are going.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
week 2
This week is going ok. My body is a little tired but thats too be expected. Im noticing that when i run upstairs i dont feel as winded. So i guess my air intake is getting better. Im hoping that the exercise will help my asthma. The past year has been rough. My allergies and asthma were not as bad when i was younger and in better shape.
Diet wise, has been great my body is adjusting to the protein intake and soon my calorie intake should decrease. Last night i ran for 30 minutes and then went thru my circuit training twice. Man that was rough. My legs felt like bananas, soft and mushy. But one thing is for sure, i SLEEP 100 times sounder lol. Too bad Hayden hasn't been running too lol. He is on his second round of teething and boy hes GROUCHY!!! Hopefully the little biter comes thru soon so we can all get some sleep. He and i were up from 330 am til 6am and i had to be up at 7am. I did find some natural teething stuff at the health food store. Its called Camilia and its amazing. Works way faster than tylenol and doesn't dope him up. The first tooth took about a week and it came out, im hoping this one is a little faster. My poor little baby.
Well i was curious this morning so i jumped on my scale. I wanted to make sure that things were still going as i hoped they were. I have my second weigh in with Janine on friday. So the number today was 208.4, I wanted to jump up and down. 7 pounds, its amazing and i cant figure out why i didn't start this sooner. We are going to DisneyWorld for Christmas this year, it was our present to the kids. We have it booked early because we got an amazing seat sale. Regular price out of GP was 1505 per person return. We paid 525 per person return. Hayden is still free so that helps a little. My sister in law owns a timeshare, that is what we are going to stay in. Its beautiful and i cant wait. By then im hoping to have peace of mind that my bathing suit wont look horrible. I want to be able to play on the beach with my kids and not have to be completely covered. Im not asking for a bikini body lol but feeling comfortable in a one piece would be great.
My trip south is approching fast, and im hoping the weather is going to cooperate. Its been a VERY long time since i seen some of my family. Its no ones fault but mine. I went thru a bad time in my life. I left a very troubled and bad relationship. I dealt with this by running away. Mind you i met my AMAZING husband here so it wasn't all bad. But i distanced my self from the ones i love the most. I miss them all terribly. But now my life is good, and i am not ashamed of things now. Im proud of what i have accomplished. I put myself thru school, and graduated with high honors. i have two beautiful and amazing kids, and a wonderful husband who is supportive. I may have dealt with things in a not so great way but it worked out in the end. Im excited to see everyone and excited for them to meet my son. Hes a great kid!! And some of my family hasn't seen Kearstin since she was small. Now shes 8 going on 15, but overall shes a great girl. Very funny, and consious of others. Her smile is beautiful.
Diet wise, has been great my body is adjusting to the protein intake and soon my calorie intake should decrease. Last night i ran for 30 minutes and then went thru my circuit training twice. Man that was rough. My legs felt like bananas, soft and mushy. But one thing is for sure, i SLEEP 100 times sounder lol. Too bad Hayden hasn't been running too lol. He is on his second round of teething and boy hes GROUCHY!!! Hopefully the little biter comes thru soon so we can all get some sleep. He and i were up from 330 am til 6am and i had to be up at 7am. I did find some natural teething stuff at the health food store. Its called Camilia and its amazing. Works way faster than tylenol and doesn't dope him up. The first tooth took about a week and it came out, im hoping this one is a little faster. My poor little baby.
Well i was curious this morning so i jumped on my scale. I wanted to make sure that things were still going as i hoped they were. I have my second weigh in with Janine on friday. So the number today was 208.4, I wanted to jump up and down. 7 pounds, its amazing and i cant figure out why i didn't start this sooner. We are going to DisneyWorld for Christmas this year, it was our present to the kids. We have it booked early because we got an amazing seat sale. Regular price out of GP was 1505 per person return. We paid 525 per person return. Hayden is still free so that helps a little. My sister in law owns a timeshare, that is what we are going to stay in. Its beautiful and i cant wait. By then im hoping to have peace of mind that my bathing suit wont look horrible. I want to be able to play on the beach with my kids and not have to be completely covered. Im not asking for a bikini body lol but feeling comfortable in a one piece would be great.
My trip south is approching fast, and im hoping the weather is going to cooperate. Its been a VERY long time since i seen some of my family. Its no ones fault but mine. I went thru a bad time in my life. I left a very troubled and bad relationship. I dealt with this by running away. Mind you i met my AMAZING husband here so it wasn't all bad. But i distanced my self from the ones i love the most. I miss them all terribly. But now my life is good, and i am not ashamed of things now. Im proud of what i have accomplished. I put myself thru school, and graduated with high honors. i have two beautiful and amazing kids, and a wonderful husband who is supportive. I may have dealt with things in a not so great way but it worked out in the end. Im excited to see everyone and excited for them to meet my son. Hes a great kid!! And some of my family hasn't seen Kearstin since she was small. Now shes 8 going on 15, but overall shes a great girl. Very funny, and consious of others. Her smile is beautiful.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
First Weigh In
Well conflicting schedules resulted in a phone weigh in. Janine ended up having her self double booked for the weekend which was fine. So with her on the phone, I jumped on the scale. I was scared out of my mind and extremely nervous. Definetly not how i expected to feel. But to my relief, I am down 4.2 lbs in ONE week!!!!! I felt great! Janine explained that the first few weeks might be numbers like that but after a while it will slow down and ill have to work harder for the same weight loss. Now I have shocked my body, its not used to exercising and eating right.
Last night was fight night, which usually comes beer and chips and numerous other snacks. I restrained myself and didn't give into the temptation of chips (my weakness). I did my workout, had my protein shake, and had my alloted 100 cal snack. Not to mention that Janine told me about diet gingerale, and diet orange crush which are sweetened with splenda not aspartane. They do still have sodium in them so you still shouldn't drink them all the time, but as an occasional treat they are great. So the UFC fight night wasn't as horrible as i thought it was going to be.
Today we went and checked out the Home Show at the tech centre. Entered our names in some draws. Would sure love to win the 15000 dollars worth of backyard furniture and stuff!!!
But again temptation followed, the tech centre was full of smells, mini donuts, popcorn, poutine, burgers. We drank our bottles of water, skipped the aisle with the mini donuts and walked right by the consession. Was HARD, but we managed. I think having a good weigh in was what helped me stay away from the junk.
Last night was fight night, which usually comes beer and chips and numerous other snacks. I restrained myself and didn't give into the temptation of chips (my weakness). I did my workout, had my protein shake, and had my alloted 100 cal snack. Not to mention that Janine told me about diet gingerale, and diet orange crush which are sweetened with splenda not aspartane. They do still have sodium in them so you still shouldn't drink them all the time, but as an occasional treat they are great. So the UFC fight night wasn't as horrible as i thought it was going to be.
Today we went and checked out the Home Show at the tech centre. Entered our names in some draws. Would sure love to win the 15000 dollars worth of backyard furniture and stuff!!!
But again temptation followed, the tech centre was full of smells, mini donuts, popcorn, poutine, burgers. We drank our bottles of water, skipped the aisle with the mini donuts and walked right by the consession. Was HARD, but we managed. I think having a good weigh in was what helped me stay away from the junk.
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