Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Month 2

Well i made my month one goal of 10 pounds, i was positive i would have lost more just on the first week itself. After the first week it slowly decrease and im having to really push myself now for results. Im definetly not discouraged tho, ten pounds is great and 5.5 more and ill be under 200 lbs and thats awesome. I will jump for joy when i hit that milestone and don't ever want to return to that. I took a few days off from my workout, my body needed the rest. But now today i feel better, Hayden sleeping thru the night may have something to do with that. I am bumping up my cardio from 30 minutes to 45. Im sure my calves will hate me later but im working up to an hour so its been long enough. Weight training is going great the weights dont feel as heavy so its almost time to bump that up too. Altho im not body building so i am not going higher than 15 lbs. I bought some resistance tubing and its great. Gives the same effect as the weights and can be used together to make it more of a challenge. And did i tell everyone how much i hate squats, my poor butt hurt so much the next day.

Well its been a busy week again, trying to get some spring cleaning done before my trip. Its been tough with Hayden being sick. Poor little guy has a pretty nasty cold despite all the oranges him and his dad consume. His nose is runny and he cant seem to breath out of his nose. He has a pretty nasty cough too, and it makes me sad i cant do much to help him. I did find some triaminic nasal spray for infants and it really helped him sleep last night so that was great. He went right from teething to being sick so his sleeping hasn't been great.

Between that and the stress of Kearstin not coming home from school for 4 days in a row has taken a toll. She seems to think that playing in the park and not coming home isn't a big deal. But i have tryed and tryed to get thru to her that i worry. I sit here hoping shes at the park but the idea of her getting picked up by a stranger isn't far from my mind. That is one of my biggest fears of her getting older. Did I teach her enough about strangers? Would she go near a vehicle asking her to get in? Would she know what to do if the situation did happen? I guess i just have to keep stressing how important it is that i know where she is at all times. AHHHHH GIRLSSSSSSS!!!!! I know i know i was a young girl that didn't want to listen to my parents too. But hopefully i can use my mistakes to better educate her and thats all i want. I just want her to have and do things i couldn't.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Well this last week has been crazy! Dwayne recieved a pay cut from his salary, so we are scrambling to sell my car to make up the difference. Stress is hindering when your trying to lose weight!! But, i think i have been handling it pretty good. My diet got kinda off track, not eating bad, just not following as closely as i should have been. It showed in the numbers too. I didn't gain but i sure wasn't losing as good as i was at the start. So this week im back on track!! I have been still working out every day, ive even added some extra exercises to the mix. Although i need to find a better skipping rope, the one i bought is not very good! Ive been doing my ab workout on the yoga ball instead of just on the floor and man is it ever a difference. I can feel a lot more of my muscles being challanged. Not just in my abs, in my back and sides too!! Saturday is another weigh in, and also time to upgrade my measurements. Myself, i dont see much of a difference. 10 pounds is great but i dont believe it makes much difference in inches but i like to be proved wrong. My husband said " You look skinnier today!" and coming from my husband who isn't much of a complimenter that feels great! The actual weight loss is slow, but my body feels so much better already. My breathing has improved and movement too. I have more energy during the day and feel less tired.

Oh and 16 more days til my trip south!!! Im so excited!!!

Friday, March 20, 2009

I know its been awhile since i posted last. The last week has been going good, minus my laptop crashing. Im hoping that when i leave for easter that my dad will have a chance to fix it. Somehow i recieved a virus on it and its affecting the booting up process. I have formatted the harddrive twice and no luck. I would hate to have to buy a new laptop, because i have only had this one for a short time. But now im on Kearstins laptop, only problem is that i have the parental controls so high that its a pain to get on any site unless i wanted to play on barbie.com.

This week has been going well, the diet is still going. I bought the Biggest Loser Cookbook, i needed to find some new recipes because i was tired of eating the same thing over and over. Yesterday i whipped up a pot of turkey chili, and it was awesome. Not as great as regular chili but still really tasty. I made enough to freeze some so ill have some for awhile as no one else here eats chili. Last night for supper i made meatballs subs for Dwayne and i. The were messy but really good and only 384 calories. I was finding it really hard to eat all the protein and 2000 calories was really high so i am following the diet plan in the biggest loser book. Less Calories but roughly the same plan.

Exercise is going really good. I feel great, only my back has been really sore the past few days. I blame the back pain on my heavy chest. Once i have lost some more weight i will be going for a reduction. Im tired of my back and shoulders being sore, paying 85 dollars for a bra, and having trouble all the time finding shirts that fit proper. Everything that fits my bust never fits anywhere else. Some women lose thiers when they have kids, not me. With Kearstin they got bigger and stayed that way. With Hayden they got bigger again and stayed that way. A 40E is way to big, and i dont understand women that get implants. Why on earth would you need them THIS BIG!!! But back to what i started talking about, the exercise is good. My stamina is getting way better and i can do longer stints on the treadmill and faster too. I feel great when i work out and right away if i miss a day i feel sluggish and tired. Im happy with the way things are going.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

week 2

This week is going ok. My body is a little tired but thats too be expected. Im noticing that when i run upstairs i dont feel as winded. So i guess my air intake is getting better. Im hoping that the exercise will help my asthma. The past year has been rough. My allergies and asthma were not as bad when i was younger and in better shape.

Diet wise, has been great my body is adjusting to the protein intake and soon my calorie intake should decrease. Last night i ran for 30 minutes and then went thru my circuit training twice. Man that was rough. My legs felt like bananas, soft and mushy. But one thing is for sure, i SLEEP 100 times sounder lol. Too bad Hayden hasn't been running too lol. He is on his second round of teething and boy hes GROUCHY!!! Hopefully the little biter comes thru soon so we can all get some sleep. He and i were up from 330 am til 6am and i had to be up at 7am. I did find some natural teething stuff at the health food store. Its called Camilia and its amazing. Works way faster than tylenol and doesn't dope him up. The first tooth took about a week and it came out, im hoping this one is a little faster. My poor little baby.

Well i was curious this morning so i jumped on my scale. I wanted to make sure that things were still going as i hoped they were. I have my second weigh in with Janine on friday. So the number today was 208.4, I wanted to jump up and down. 7 pounds, its amazing and i cant figure out why i didn't start this sooner. We are going to DisneyWorld for Christmas this year, it was our present to the kids. We have it booked early because we got an amazing seat sale. Regular price out of GP was 1505 per person return. We paid 525 per person return. Hayden is still free so that helps a little. My sister in law owns a timeshare, that is what we are going to stay in. Its beautiful and i cant wait. By then im hoping to have peace of mind that my bathing suit wont look horrible. I want to be able to play on the beach with my kids and not have to be completely covered. Im not asking for a bikini body lol but feeling comfortable in a one piece would be great.

My trip south is approching fast, and im hoping the weather is going to cooperate. Its been a VERY long time since i seen some of my family. Its no ones fault but mine. I went thru a bad time in my life. I left a very troubled and bad relationship. I dealt with this by running away. Mind you i met my AMAZING husband here so it wasn't all bad. But i distanced my self from the ones i love the most. I miss them all terribly. But now my life is good, and i am not ashamed of things now. Im proud of what i have accomplished. I put myself thru school, and graduated with high honors. i have two beautiful and amazing kids, and a wonderful husband who is supportive. I may have dealt with things in a not so great way but it worked out in the end. Im excited to see everyone and excited for them to meet my son. Hes a great kid!! And some of my family hasn't seen Kearstin since she was small. Now shes 8 going on 15, but overall shes a great girl. Very funny, and consious of others. Her smile is beautiful.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

First Weigh In

Well conflicting schedules resulted in a phone weigh in. Janine ended up having her self double booked for the weekend which was fine. So with her on the phone, I jumped on the scale. I was scared out of my mind and extremely nervous. Definetly not how i expected to feel. But to my relief, I am down 4.2 lbs in ONE week!!!!! I felt great! Janine explained that the first few weeks might be numbers like that but after a while it will slow down and ill have to work harder for the same weight loss. Now I have shocked my body, its not used to exercising and eating right.
Last night was fight night, which usually comes beer and chips and numerous other snacks. I restrained myself and didn't give into the temptation of chips (my weakness). I did my workout, had my protein shake, and had my alloted 100 cal snack. Not to mention that Janine told me about diet gingerale, and diet orange crush which are sweetened with splenda not aspartane. They do still have sodium in them so you still shouldn't drink them all the time, but as an occasional treat they are great. So the UFC fight night wasn't as horrible as i thought it was going to be.
Today we went and checked out the Home Show at the tech centre. Entered our names in some draws. Would sure love to win the 15000 dollars worth of backyard furniture and stuff!!!
But again temptation followed, the tech centre was full of smells, mini donuts, popcorn, poutine, burgers. We drank our bottles of water, skipped the aisle with the mini donuts and walked right by the consession. Was HARD, but we managed. I think having a good weigh in was what helped me stay away from the junk.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Trip To The ER

Well just when i thought every thing was going good, i felt a cold sore coming on. My dr had prescribed valtrax for them and told me when i feel one coming out to take two and then two more 12 hrs later. Well i took 2 and went to bed and woke up at five am with itchy swollen feet and hands. I went to the emergency room and found that i would need my wedding rings cut off or i would lose my finger. So finally the nurse was able to use the BONE CUTTERS and get them off. They gave me prednisone and something else that has made me sick to my stomach and Very tired. But on the good side of things, i still have my finger. Monday i will take my wedding rings to the jeweller and see if they are fixable. It is the first time in 15 mths that i have had them off.
So for the diet, i haven't been able to eat much because of the nausea. Toast and crackers so hopefully it wont slow me down to much. Its lunch and im feeling a little better, im gonna nap with the kids and then hopefully get the rest of the day back to normal. Will only be doing my cardio tonight as my body is far to tired to be doing weights. My first weigh in with Janine is first thing in the morning, im scared because today was a set back but am optimistic that i have worked hard all week and praying that it will pay off. Wish Me Luck!!!

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Feeling better!!

Well yesterday was a little better than the day before. The exercise is going great my muscles are not as sore. Which makes actually starting the work out way easier. Im getting quicker on the treadmill too which is good. But half way thru, my calves are still on fire. The weight training is going good, i can go thru the circuit much faster than the first time. So tonight I am going to do the circuit twice and see how that goes. Dwayne and i did our work out together last night. That was very nice, lightened the mood for sure. I enjoy his company so much and its few and far between to have moments together without our kids. Its so refreshing to know that i have his support thru all of this. Knowing that hes going thru it too kind of eases my mind.

Im still struggling with the high protein diet. I've been doing a lot of researching about it online and it definetly has its pros and cons. Long term can be harmful to your kidneys and other organs. Thankfully i will only be on it for 3 months. That will be the fat shredding portion of this weight loss. But on the good side, high protein diets help turn fat into lean muscle mass. Which is exactly what i want, so they tell me anyway. As i lose weight my protein intake decreases along with my calorie intake until i can be changed to a healthy Maintenance diet. Thats what im looking forward to, not having to lose weight but just to stay healthy. I want my kids and us to be healthy. But eating this much protein is hard, so i went to walmart and bought protein powder to make protein shakes. Mixed with fruit they aren't half bad but not so great by themselves. Altho it beats plain eggwhites all the time lol.

Saturday is my first weigh in, i'm scared but know that i have been doing my workout and following the meal plan pretty good so every thing should be fine. Janine tells me that 1-2 pounds a week is about average. At 215, i have a very long road ahead of me. I'm excited tho, i cant wait to start seeing results!!!

Monday, March 2, 2009


I guess i had no idea how much i really was going to hurt today. It was hard to get out of bed but here i am. Today so far consisted of fibre plus waffle and strawberries, and turkey bacon which i can tell you would be great if you weren't a small town country girl like me. Bacon is supposed to be pork and come from a slab but once im down in weight my meal plan changes and REAL bacon can be added again. Snack was 1 cup of cottage cheese, blahhhhh not a real fan of cottage cheese but mixed with fruit i was able to swallow it. Lunch was a salad, with tomatoe and chicken which was great but being on a high protien diet for the first few months is crazy. But if it works i guess its worth it. After supper i have to run Kearstin to taekwon do, and then pick up wieghts, an exercise ball, and a yoga mat. Luckily thats all i have to purchase to do my workout. I have the treadmill already which hasn't been used often unfortunatly. Better late than never lol. As for the soreness, a hot shower helped tremendously. I'm sure once i work out tonight it will loosen them up some more. Mind you i keep in my mind that i will never hurt as much as my hubby will tomorrow lol. He is supporting my weighloss with one of his own. My personal trainer, Janine, runs a Bootcamp. My strong willed hubby was up at 5 am so that he could attend this bootcamp at 6am. He came home very flushed and tired. When i think of my 30 minute workout is nothing compared to the 1 hour of HARD circuit training that he went thru this morning. We have both decided that we love our kids too much to be over weight and lazy. Our kids deserve parents that will play with them and just be alive. Janine informed me that because i carry most of my weight in my chest and stomach i am at huge risk for heart disease. At only 25, im just starting my life. I couldn't believe that i was at risk of having a heart attack. That just made it more clear to me that my husband and i have to do something to save our lives. My Aunt sent me a message the other day and it was extremely motivating and inspirational!! "develop compassion for ourselves...begin to understand that our eating comes from a deep sacred place within us. You are not using food because you lack control, are undisciplined, or are flawed, but because it is the only way you can take care of yourself...learn new ways to take care of yourself." And that is exactly what i plan to do!!!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Day 2!!!

I always told myself that quiting smoking would be the hardest thing i would ever have to do but boy was i wrong. Yesterday just getting my meal plan, i thought well this isn't going to be too bad. Although today i realized that to jump start my metabolizm i have to eat more often and more of some things and less of others. The diet is going ok so far. I am going to miss my night time snacking tho. Today i met with Janine for the fitness part of my training. WOW, she kicked my butt. I knew that i was out of shape but man after the first day my body feels like a tractor ran me over. She assures me that this is only temporary and that as i get stronger, my body wont hurt as much. I know this is true, but damn my legs feel like jello and my muscles are aching. But tomorrow im going to get up and do it all again. 30 minutes of total body workout and 30 minutes of Cardio on my treadmill three times a week and 1 hour of cardio the rest of the week. Janine is optimistic that i will have lost at least 2.5 pounds by Sat, ill believe that when i see it lol. One thing i thought of while my legs felt as tho they were going to give out, was Kearstin and Hayden. I want nothing more that to be able to run around with them. They are my inspiration and my motivation.